miss emotionally absent

just watch in what way i will shine
and how i can make that momnet is mine..
life did a favor by makin me real
opening my eye and see before i feel ..
to throw my heart ashes in the windy reality
so everybody can be happy
maybe its too late to gain my victory
or maybe its too late to find my remedy...
because the concept of this life became clear right now
no matter how
u will fall
..... please
dont try to be close from who i am
cuz i cried more than i thought i can...
so ... if u just want to be kind
help me to throw away things make me blind.
the much i smile the twice i cry
its exactly like runnig a mile without knowing why ..
finally .. just let me fly bymeslf
and let me reach the land of my derams
cuz its hard more than it seemes
yes am miss emotionally absent
i dont need to try harder for the happieness..
i just prefer to live without being that searcher for the imposible.... right ?